February 23, 2011

Giving Young Poz Guys Hope

As someone who's been living with HIV/AIDS for 25 years and counting, it's important to me to give young poz guys some hope.

Young poz guys need to know they can still be sexy, sexual, happy, healthy and lovable without adding an asterisk to their identities.

If a guy like me can survive the AIDS Panic of the last century, young guys today can thrive while living with HIV/AIDS in the new century.

Young poz guys, take your sexy back. Get your mojo back. Life ain't over. You, too, can be sexy and lovable.

February 22, 2011

More than a Checkbox

I'm not a box, nor do I always fit inside one. Life is full of forms to fill out, boxes to check, categories to categorize a guy. But what about a guy who doesn't fit into all the categories and boxes?

Am I gay? I dream of eating out a woman's pussy. Am I a top or bottom? What if I like both top and bottom? Am I black or white? What about my light skin and the white man's DNA running through it? What about Native American blood inside me? What the fuck am I?

I'm a man who doesn't fit into a box. A man who doesn't think top or bottom. A man who's way more than one box at any given time. Any buddy wanna say it with me? Fuck the boxes!

February 20, 2011

Who Would Love a Guy Like Me?

When's the last time you read a book, saw a magazine, passed a billboard, rented a movie, saw any image anywhere where the object of anyone's affection was someone like me, black, gay and living with HIV/AIDS.

When's the last time you heard anyone say, "I just need to find the right black gay guy with HIV/AIDS to settle down with."

Welcome to my world.

Enjoy your stay.

February 19, 2011

Portrait of a Healthy Poz Dude

Been living with HIV/AIDS for 25 and a half years and counting.

And they said I wouldn't last. lol

I'm lasting, loving my life and living better than I ever dreamed possible.

And I haven't even turned 50 yet. Boy, I hope I get to turn 50, though 49 ain't bad for a guy who acquired the AIDS virus when he was a mere 23 years-old.

Man, I love my life.

February 18, 2011

February 15, 2011

The Only Me I Got

It isn't always easy, living with a disease in a disease-free world.

Then again, it's never been easy living as a black man in a white man's world.

Nor has it been such a picnic living as a homo in a hetero world.

It's not a breeze being me, a black homo living with AIDS, but it's the only me I got.

So I'll keep dreaming the better dream and keep hoping I find a buddy who wants to dream it with me.