August 8, 2008

The Man of My Dreams

Someday, I'm going to finally meet him. The man of my dreams. He'll be different from all the hetero men I've ever met, the ones who can't stomach even hearing about the kind of life I dream of and the kind of love I have to offer. He won't be like the majority of gay men I've encountered either, the ones who automatically reject me because of the color of my skin, my HIV status or the fact that I'm not a mindless Mandingo top who lives to fuck a mindless bottom boy's ass. The man of my dreams will be so much more than all the men whose hearts and minds are closed to loving someone like me. The man of my dreams will believe Who I Am is a perfect match for Who He Is. It will be a dream come true for both of us.

The man of my dreams will be a male sexual animal who doesn't feel “gay” or “straight,” just sexual. He'll be single, available, and of similar age and maturity.

The man of my dreams will also be:
  • someone who values intense, intimate male bonding, like warriors united in spirit and flesh.
  • someone who doesn't identify with the gay world.
  • someone who doesn't identify with the straight world.
  • someone who doesn't live a “gay” or “straight” lifestyle.
  • someone who believes in creating a world beyond “gay” and “straight."
  • someone capable of viewing women as hot, erotic objects of lust (primarily with his buddy).
  • someone dreaming of having another man as a buddy and best friend for life.
  • someone able to look beyond the racist ways of many Americans and most gay men.
  • someone capable of appreciating the unique beauty that is a black man (regardless of his own race).
  • someone able to love a man who happens to be HIV-positive (regardless of his own status).
  • someone intelligent enough to see HIV-positive in a loving light.
  • someone into watching sports, especially basketball, football, and baseball.
  • someone into shooting hoops, tossing the football or Frisbee, biking, hiking, camping, hitting the beach, playing like boys.
  • someone into being the alpha or equal in a buddy duo.
  • someone who loves to fuck and who isn't opposed to the idea of getting fucked occasionally (as needed to lighten his ass up).
  • someone who enjoys the smell of his ripe manly pits, and mine.
  • someone who gets off on his funky, sweaty jockstrap, and mine.

  • someone who loves eating ass.
  • someone who loves having his ass eaten.
  • someone who loves to 69 with our heads up each other's butts in deep space.
  • someone comfortable taking a piss in front of me, and vice versa.
  • someone comfortable taking a dump in front of me, and vice versa.
  • someone who likes water sports and getting dirty in the mud.
  • someone who appreciates smelling like the funky male animals we are.
  • someone who appreciates feeling clean after getting dirty.
  • someone open to all the crazy, raunchy shit two buddies can get into.
  • someone who loves to hold his man.
  • someone who loves to be held by his man.
  • someone amazed by science and the Science Channel.
  • someone who believes in evolution, not man-made religions.
  • someone who has been dreaming his whole life of having a buddy just like me.
  • someone who believes in honesty and loyalty.
  • someone who still has big dreams in life.
  • someone who believes his buddy dream can still come true.
  • someone ready to work at, fight for, and put in the time, energy and effort to make his buddy dream come true.
  • someone ready for the love and time of his life.
  • someone ready to meet his buddy.
That's the man of my dreams. Buddy, are you out there?